One of the girls turns 30 today. Wow, what a milestone, or is it? I remember the "younger" years when milestones were:
15 (permit to drive)
16 (driver's license),
18 (supposed adult, gamble, buy cigarettes)
But honestly, none of those were huge milestones for me. Granted, I was able to get my license when I turned 16 (mom's rule was you had to have straight A's) but it wasn't like I had my own car. And what did it matter, I lived right behind the high school anyway. At 18 and 21, I wasn't interested in the things the law now legally allowed me to do so they were no big deal either. But 30, I'm thinking that might be a milestone for me.
As it is, I feel old. Not that I think I'm wrinkly, old and dying or anything. But feeling like I need to be a responsible adult ALL the time. Sometimes though, I forget and let my hair down. One of those times, more recently, my husband pointed it out to me. We were leaving and I had to run back in the house for something. On my way up the walk, I very sarcastically dropped the back of my pants and mooned my husband. His response was something along the lines of "one of these days your child is going to be very embarrassed when he sees his mom do that". And then it hit me... not only am I an adult, I'm a mom and wife and need to act appropriately. Although, I couldn't help but think two things in that instant. My child will either think his mom is still humorous and fun or he'll be embarrassed - it might depend on if his friends are nearby to see it too.
So, once again I'm feeling like an adult. No more up all night conversations with the girls, no more midnight tanning sessions, no more random trips to the lake with the guys, no more college life. I'm married. I have two children (one of which is still kicking at my from the inside). I have a career. What did I do, what did I give up and Why? Honestly, I love it. I have a husband who loves me and tries to do things to express that love to me. I have a son who has the biggest and best smile that melts my heart constantly. I have a life that although crazy at times, is exactly perfect for me. Sure, I miss my friends back home but life here is wonderful and I'm glad to be home here!