24 June 2005

light at the end of the tunnel

Visited the doc yesterday. must say i've been a bit frustrated with how he's not educated and explained things to me but anyway. my nurse, sue, is awesome and did some good explaining which helped determine that i should be checked "down there". miller said i'm dilated 2 cm and moving right along. a much better report than last week when he said the baby was in no hurry to come out. yay, there is light at the end of the tunnel. we discussed being induced and he actually explained a few things to me. so next wednesday he'll check me again in hopes (my hopes) that i've dilated and thinned more as well as have a bit of increased blood pressure. if all goes as planned, he will plan to induce me on thursday.

i'm excited and a bit scared. things are getting done around the house and we're ready for a baby but are we really ready? i fear the whole process - labor and delivery and then trying to figure out what to do afterwards. i can change diapers but breastfeeding - i have no clue! a week from now we might have a baby buitenwerf. holy cow!

i'm also a bit nervous about how things will change around our house - me being able to maintain our home, be a mom and eventually return to work full time. how our marriage will change and hopefully grow. how we won't be so free to go and do all the time.

TGIF. yup, i'm way excited its friday but i'm not so eager to go home to a non-AC house. yesterday it was 80 degrees inside when i got home. after bible study and 8 bodies were there for a few hours, it was 85 degrees. i was dying from heat and felt like the dog who was laying in the corner panting. today is supposed to get to 92 degrees with humidity - no fun. i'll probably hang out at moms where the AC is going :) Hope everyone has a nice weekend - especially those of you camping out.

8 comments:

CORI said...

You'll do great Tammy!!! It'll be scary and stressful on you and your marriage in the beginning but you'll find a way to make it work for you!

WOW. You're popping out a lil one. Katie's getting married. We're growing up!

Ashley said...

I'm sooooo excited for you!!!!

jerelyn said...

I second what Ashley said...I can't wait! Cori's right, you are going to be a great mom!!

Alisha said...

I am third to be so excited! A baby in less than a week, I can't wait to see pictures. This is such an exciting next step in your lives. God is going to bless you so much. This little one is so lucky to have such wonderful Godly parents.

Anonymous said...

Fun to read about your life. Keep the good attitude we'll be praying for you.

"Uncle MB"

Kristin said...

Tammy,

Having this baby will add such amazing new experiences to your and Ryan's life.....getting there might seem difficult, but God won't give you more than you guys can handle! (Just be thankful you aren't having quintuplets!!) I will be praying for you this week and can't wait to hear the news when baby Buitenwerf is born!

Jennifer said...

There is sooooooooo much I can say about this post. 1st kiss the clean home goodbye! For a few weeks anyways. You are going to be so sleepy the first few weeks will be some kind of a blurr. Don't be surprised if you are a bit weepy and depressed after you get home with the baby. It's normal and most new mothers feel that way. The good news is it gets better and every day. You will get more comfortable and before you know it having the time of your life. Children are a wonderful gift! Feel free to ask any questions. I'm never gonna suger coat it for you, I will always tell you the truth!

Carrie said...

I can't wait to meet the whole B family when you are in Cali. Praying for you as you enter this new phase. Can't wait to hear when he arraivesw.